Asunder While Together

Asunder While Together

I’m speechless with no idea where to start
Yet in my heart, I know whatever happens is for the best
Even though I also know what happens will take time to feel that way

Slight regret haunts the linings of my heart
Considering all that we’ve talked about up until this point
When you said you weren’t ready, I said I’d wait, and now I can feel the pain

Back then, I must have thought
That now I’d be able to handle being with you still
While your best friend and yourself stuck together like the strongest glue

And now about that thought
It must have been silly, but it was true, and that’s enough
And I’ve the highest appreciation of your being able to be honest with me too

The regret is something
That comes along with making tough decisions like this
And as much as it may be for the best, right now, I still need convincing of that

Even as the voices
Of you and your best friend echo endlessly in my brain
My feelings still rather split between the two of you, both of you aware of that fact

It feels like I’ve ruined everything
Even though the feelings and the decision were mutual
And everything I’ve ever said to you was truly, sincerely, and deeply honest

And I suppose that’s the best
I can offer of those I trust and love in my life, but the fact
That this decision is one we’ve both come to doesn’t make me want you any less

A war’s being fought inside my heart, my brain dealing with the after-effects
I can feel the pain like that felt when the captain and the doctor lose those they love
Asunder while together, that’s the best way I can possibly hope to put how I feel
Until I’m sure that another hopeful decision all of us will come to will be more than enough…

Will it?